June 4th, 2002


Lost in a dream
Nothing is what it seems
Searching my head
For the words that you said

Tears filled my eyes
As we said our last goodbyes
The sad scene replays
Of you walking away

My body aches from mistakes
Betrayed by lust~

la la lala keep swimming glug glug glug
        Let us now move all the way inside the other fish. Let us do the
impossible. Let us imagine, conceive, journey into where the other
fish is at home. We will need to leave behind us our separative egos
and pick them up later. This is intuitive territory and it's been a long
time since we've known our way there. But here we go anyway.
        We are travelling through the threshold. It is thin and permeable.
Any and all worlds are here. We wander along their edges. Whichever
way we go, here we are, partaking of infinity. All sensations flood
through us. We are moving toward the place we are meant to go. This
journey has been unfolding for a long time. But we are starting to find
our way. The only remedy is to build up inner strength precisely where one
feels virtually helpless. she is so self-giving, even when she feels
there is nothing left to offer.
        The infinite mystery is that many roads lead to the very same place.
All it takes is crazy perseverance to make each path yield
true fruits. You cannot go wrong. You can delay the inevitable. But
the destination is always luminously in view. together as one.
  • Current Music
    megadeth - train of consequences


It's okay, we've all seen better days
It's okay, you don't have to run and hide away
It's okay
It's okay, yeah we love you anyway

For in those reckless moments
When doubt is creeping in your head
Feeling like you've lost your youth
And the dreams you had are cold and dead
I can't reach you anymore
That's gonna take a different man
I can't protect you like before
You've slipped beyond my hands
But it's okay.......

I wish that I could light the path
That leads to a life of no mistakes
Hold you from the damned be done
That living out of safety seems to take
I remember still the child in you
As if only yesterday
It was easy to break through
I only had to kiss the pain
But it's okay.......

This is my chance, this is my life
And my opening hour
This is my choice, this is my voice
There may be no tomorrow
This is my plea, this is my need
This is my time for standing free
This is my step, this is my depth
In a world demanding of me
But it's okay.......